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1.17.2005

*I HATE DOCTORS*

My mother just called the fucking doctor for me and made an appointment for the day i'm leaving to go back to school and theres no fucking way i'm going. I hate doctors and it was bad enough that i fucking hated the nicest pediatrician in the world but now i have to go to a fucking nasty mean adult doctor and theres no fucking way i'm going. FUCK THAT.

I have social anxiety disorder. I have absolutely zero doubt that I do and theres no fucking way I can go to a doctor and not DIE. They give me the creeps and I am NOT taking my clothes off for some random fucking person I never met to run her hands all over me and tell me i'm fucking fine. I already knew that. In fact, I'm much LESS fine when I leave then when I go in because you fucking made me feel like shit.

I FUCKING HATE DOCTORS AND I AM STILL IN THE WORST POSSIBLE MOOD AND I DON'T THINK I'M GOING TO GO SHOPPING WITH MY MOM BECAUSE SHE IS CALLING LIKE 400 DOCTORS (eye, asthma, regular, dermatologist, dentist) BECAUSE SHE SUDDENLY WANTS ME TO GO TO 5 FUCKING APPOINTMENTS BEFORE I GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND I DON'T WANT TO GO TO ANY. I'M SUCH A FUCKING BABY BUT I DONT GIVE A SHIT I'M REALLY PISSED OFF AND WANT TO CRY.

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