* s t a r d u s t a g a i n s t a p a l e s k y *

A falling star is a phenomenon to an adult and magic- a miracle- to a child. Who's right? Things are what you define them. So who am I? I guess it's up to you...

2.10.2005

*BRING IT ON*

So here's my new theory about school work :

- When I run the mile, I have to walk and gradually build up. The people who start with running are the people who either can run the entire way because they are in such good shape OR they totally tire out and by the end they are crawling and barely make it in. So even if I suck in the beginning, I know my times, I know my goal, I know how much time I have left and how fast I need to run to get there. On the other hand, people who run fast in the beginning know their times but have no idea how much slower they will get the more they push themselves too far.

In conclusion, I am sucking at the beginning of the semester. I am basically failing all my first quizzes and I am not paying attention in class, and I am trying to decided whether to drop one or try harder instead. So heres the thing: if I suck now, at least I'll know what it takes, mathematically, to get back up to an A. And even though I may have to work hard, at least if I am learning better concentration I can say "the beginning of the semester I was having a hard enough time keeping my life together, but things are much better now". You have to walk before you run. I just pray, pray, pray that I get the ability to concentrate back in my hot little hands. *sigh* I hope this works.

My alarm didn't go off this morning. It wasn't so bad because getting up at 8 would have meant only 4 hours of sleep and 2 1/2 hours of studying and chapel instead. So I got 6 1/2 hours and woke up and rushed out, made it to class on time (althoug for some reason, that class always starts 5 minutes early, which is annoying to walk in on), and skipped poetry so i can sit here and procrastinate more (slash decide whether to drop poetry or just skip this week and start anew next week). But yeah.. so I'm not expecting to do well on Psychology but I am expecting to get ahead for next week because Mike is coming and therefore there is no chance of studying Monday night, and because I really need to start putting an effort into this schoolwork.

This was the first beginning of new classes that I didn't dive in in the beginning, getting all homework done at first. I really have lost that caring ability that you speak so highly of.

And I'm impressed by Ben's response.

And instead of absolute crap all day, I have taken up eating only strawberries. I hope I don't like, turn red or something. But I feel a little healthier, although the soda habit is unkillable.

Oh yeah, and I'm so getting those cigarettes next time I'm at Wal-mart. I don't wanna smoke em, I just wanna look at them! I'm a loser, but I'm really serious.

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